Snowmen

Every city, a constellation of sufferers,
As if some artist in the sky
Flicked a paint-soaked brush across the map marking each spot damned.

Down every alley and up and through every high rise
The sound of stomachs grumbling,
Rationed voices croak: Not today, I’m saving that tin of something.

Well, winter’s gonna be a cold one this year, or so they say
And pure white snowmen,
Shaped gleefully by mittened hands,
Dotted around house-fronts,
Will stare from dead-coal eyes into empty insides,
Passed dreamless trails of ketones.

 

Image “Snowman” courtesy of Javlr on Flickr in accordance with Creative Commons

A Human Crisis

The Jungle in Calais, the island of Kos, the border of Macedonia and Greece – these are all points at which refugees have converged, seeking a better life. Yet our (UK) government’s rhetoric remains unchanged. “We need to protect our borders”, says David Cameron, an excuse to ignore the problem. We’re not advocating letting everyone in, but we’re asking for policy to be based on compassion. Instead of “How do we keep these people out?”, we should be asking “How best can we help these people?”

People. That’s all they are, they are not migrants, they are fellow human beings, yet the media, much of it, until very very recently, until images of drowned children washed up on shore reared themselves on social media, has been negative. So let’s see this as an opportunity to help our fellow human beings and give them the first true glimpses of hope they’ve seen in a long while.

Guaranteed, these people will pay this country back with hard work, gratitude and add to the beautiful cultural melting pot that is Great Britain.

Featured image from Greens EFA on Flickr in accordance with Creative Commons

A Human Crisis

Cameron would have us believe they’re a swarm
Come to camp out on our lawns
Taking food from our children’s mouths
Invading in thousands from the south.

“People know what I mean”, he says,
Not like cockroaches, rats or locust plagues,
These people who have travelled far
Across the choppy waters in the dark
Having already worked harder than we ever will
Toiling against oppression, violence, and endless ills.

They are strong, they have proven themselves worthy
They have mustered these last bursts of strength to make this journey.
Children in tow, dead left behind,
No time for tears, they’ve had to survive.

Meanwhile we: Latte’s in our laps or ales in our glasses,
We discuss bringing in the army,
To tackle these most desperate hordes
That sleep in tents pitched out of doors.

See, the discussion has been set, we argue within defined parameters,
We think we know it all, are smart and informed but we’re amateurs.
Arguments bounce between ones and zeros
Each choice a brand of fear though.

And so our brave leader says, “privilege for all”,
It’s a choice, didn’t you know? Be rich or be poor.
“But we need to protect our borders”
(From rampant migrant scum sewing seeds of disorder).
Well, hasn’t that attitude worked out well
For these poor souls who’ve been through hell,
Makeshift toilets dug in the ground
Injuries sustained along the way abound.

So I say “fuck you, Cameron” and your heartless narrow band,
You’ve traded empathy for some ideology you’ve picked up from Ayn Rand.
It’s that “there’s no room”, “appeal to the lowest common denominator” politics of fear,
The same shit Farage spouts while drinking beer.

I want us to grasp those last dying fragments of compassion in our hearts
And Instead of capitalism vs socialism vs Corbynism endlessly debated, let’s just make a start.
Come up with a plan, scrap that hundred billion quid of nuke
And prove the Great in Britain aint some fluke.
Put people right up front and call on wisdom
Not on a predatory, misinterpreted sense of Darwinism.

Tories, neo-whatevers, Blairites and tax swindling scum,
Let’s wipe those lines in sand we’ve drawn and be said and done.

Boy in Blue

One brief moment was all it took,
Unburdened abandon in this brown boy’s look.
He and his friend crossing the road,
First left then right and over they go.
A skip in their step on this Friday afternoon,
They wear baggy t-shirts both shades of blue.

But my stare stays fixed on the boy to the right,
The sun in his eyes a measure too bright
But he won’t bat an eye, no, he won’t look away
‘Cos the world has no hold on him this glorious day.

Then a spark, brief and pure and connected
To some memory the world’s since tested.
A recollection of a boyhood hope,
Before the knots, before the rope.

And just like a spark that sears behind the eyes
This briefest moment lingers and I’m made to realise
That I once was this boy, young, sun-drenched and free
But I lost my way to the weight of all that’s unseen.

Carriage

This is a really short, bleak poem. I suppose I was feeling pretty weary when I wrote it. I didn’t even intend for it to be short at all but the words just stopped coming. I re-read it later and realised it didn’t need anything more as it summed up how I was feeling at that particular moment. You may have felt the same way…

Image: Donne nebbia ferrovia

Carriage

I look into her eyes and she looks into mine
Knowing what I see and knowing she sees it too, in me.
Tired eyes in an expressionless void. Drained dry.
Too sleepy to resist, too empty to care,
We are the collective sum of tired promises we made to ourselves and each other.
I’m sure you hate it as I do, trying so hard to fail.
There’s a world out there but these tracks promise a destination
And so we carry on, opting for the known over the unknown.

Schizm

This is an old poem I wrote in 2002. It was posted on DeviantArt, my old haunt back in the day, and won an award called a “Daily Deviation”. This is what was said about it:

“Schizm is the perfect title for a poem about the division in a person’s self between the person they feel they were and the person they know they are today. Incredibly heartfelt and emotional, this poem hits hard, and is a definite recommendation for anyone that wants to read a truly honest poem.”

 

Schizm

My distorted vision of beauty is realised in you,
The grace that I perceived to be yours
Thundered down upon my gaze,
Gleeful, radiant and elegant
But now,
I choke.

Ill advised was I to ignore your calls,
Bitter and wanton in the cascaded moonbeams.
I still hear them now
Like swelling vibrato in my head.
And I may just cut them out.

So your frivolous nature and promiscuity get the better of you,
I see you how I imagine the countless souls you’ve left behind
Wasting and rotting in their own remorse
Tasting regret, like your tongue bleeding in their mouths.
In mine.

My own face has begun to feel like someone else’s
And in the mirror tears I cry.
Feelings that were once absent reappear
And for a brief and stunning moment I think I want to die.
Life however carries on
And tears stream deeper. Further.

A part of me now missing
But I’m better off this way,
For one day there’ll be nothing left
And my indifference will ensure
These tears are never shed again…

 

* Image: creativeoverflow.net/wp-conten… – Smashed Glass by Ryan Cooley | www.cooleystudio.com/ 

My history with dogs

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I’m going to tell a little tale
About my history with dogs.
I’ll start way back when,
I can’t remember my age,
Older than seven, less than 10.

Frost crunch footsteps on grass,
Hitting golf balls in my local park.
My dad’s by my side, nine-iron in hand
And he’s swinging that thing like “isn’t life grand”.

All of a sudden out of nowhere two snarling German Shepherds
Bundled towards me with their eyes transfixed.
They cut their own hot billowed breath like a razors
And out of silence I hear my dad shout, “Chris!!”

I snapped out from my stupor and ran with all my strength.
Now, I’d love to say I was a natural sprinter
With my athletic build and supple long legs.
But sadly I am not, and it looked and felt like certain death.

So it was lucky for me my dad intervened,
He timed it right and took his nine,
Cracked the canines on their noses
And I collapsed, cheeks flushed like roses.

Everything stopped and was quiet,
The dogs stood at attention and let out little whimpers.
Their master huffed and puffed down the winding path, waving his hand in the air as if to say
“I’m here now!”, but the fat fuck was still miles away…

German Shepherds, the chosen dog of the Nazi’s!
They’re a dog of oppression, of fascism and hate!
I wonder at the outcome of the war had the Nazi’s replaced
The German Shepherd with the dachshund.
The world would be a better place.

Then year after year after year after year
I was convinced dogs could smell my fear.
They barked as I walked by them on the street.
They eyed me up and down and growled
And while I lay in bed at night they howled.

I kept my distance and for years it stayed that way.
That is until I was given no say.
See my sister bought a puppy
A little runt, a bitch, a Staffy.
And I had a go, “what about when you go away”
“what do you know about dogs anyway ”
“plus don’t you know that staffys bite”
“and you’ll wade knee deep in piss and shite”
But it was no good, she was here to stay
And so I learned to love that bitch anyway.

They called her Paris, Paris Taylor

Yes she had a second name.
My sister explained,
If you get a chavvy dog you go all the way.

Fair enough, I thought to myself,
But you’d just graduated from a theatre degree,
So you could have probably found a better way
To make scathing social commentary.

Eight years have now passed,
And in that time my love for canines grew
Mastifs, Ridgebacks, short haired pointers
And maybe even poodles too.

All except chihuahuas, I can’t fucking stand chihuahuas.

It’s weird, I can’t walk past a dog in a park anymore without giving them a stroke
Its owner looking at me strangely like “who the fuck’s this bloke?”
To me it doesn’t matter, boy, if your owner is a girl
Who’s buxom assets carry favour with men across world.
I’m really only in it for the endless games of fetch
And not the lustful daydream of my face amongst her breasts.

But there’s one strange thing about my growing affection
Beyond calling out to them in cutesy inflections.
Because I still don’t have a dog of my own.
And I can’t in all good conscience bring one home.
Cos I live in a small, north London, poxy first floor flat
That being said, I’ll never ever ever ever get a fucking cat…

 

* Artwork from DogArtists.co.uk

The 7pm Crowd

The 7pm crowd are haggard and tired,
Caffeine stained lips of the twitchy and wired.
Dragging their withered shells home to stare
Into another crowded bundle of coloured light.

You did a good job today,
You did yourself proud,
You showed them how it’s done,
It’s all yours to be won.

It’s there for the taking,
You’ve just got to want it more than the rest
And you might just make it
‘Cos you’re no jobsworth, you’re obsessed!

Time for the sack, mind racing,
Running on fumes but the chase ain’t over,
Best set the alarm a half hour early
To be seen, to be heard, to come stumbling out
Of your bosses bosses tongue.

You show em how it’s done
It’s all yours to be won.

The City

A swarm centres in on the city,
Its beady eyes as one approaching.
Vast, misguided and ripe for plucking, sifting and crushing
With the most delicate and rewarding touch.

Set upon this chosen course
By those giddy with your promise on their breath.
Just another sip of your sweetness and so the city swells out,
This belly once more pregnant and slowly turning sour.

Beckoned by the bright lights,
Powered by those who came before,
Who’s eyes arched skywards just like yours.
Teased in by the wolf
Who’s monstrous intake of breath
took with it all the little piggies.

And so the swarms grow thinner
As they follow tales of ascension,
Spouted by the screens that hold their attention,
Dragged by some endless need to be
Better than they need to be
Because of stories woven by the swarms that soured.

Soon the city will be ready to burst
Showering it’s empty promise to the soil
Where it might just anchor, take hold and spark
In silence.